~~Attitude~~

                                Attitude

There once was a woman who woke up one morning, looked in the mirror,
                    and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.
                    'Well,' she said, 'I think I'll braid my hair today.'
                           So she did and she had a wonderful day.
                                                      
                      The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror
                     and saw that she had only two hairs on her head.
       'H-M-M,' she said, 'I think I'll part my hair down the middle today.'
                                So she did and she had a grand day.
                                                    
             The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and noticed
                              that she had only one hair on her head.
           'Well,' she said, 'today I'm going to wear my hair in a pony tail.'
                               So she did, and she had a fun, fun day.
                                                        
                     The next day she woke up, looked in the mirror and
                       noticed that there wasn't a single hair on her head.
                  'YAY!' she exclaimed. 'I don't have to fix my hair today!'

                                                          
                                    Attitude is everything.

                                             Be kinder than necessary,
                        for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
                                                        Live simply,
                                                    Love generously,
                                                        Care deeply,
                                                        Speak kindly
                                                  and pray continually.
                              Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...
                                          
                                      It's about learning to dance in the rain.

                                    Life is  too short to wake up with regrets.
              Love the people who treat you right and pray for the ones who don't.

It's not what you gather, but what you scatter that tells what kind of life you have lived.


After 11 months of Chemo/Velcade I'm still standing."Don't Blink"




 

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I love my Boys!!

It's been almost 11 months since My SCT. I'm doing great! I have taught school the year year :) I made it and its almost over. I'm really looking forward to a summer NOT in the hospital. For some reason my RBC is not coming up. about 3 weeks ago it was at 22. They started me on weekly injections to help and it has come up a little each week. It is at 30.5 right now. My daughter Shawna graduated from college this week WOOT! I'm proud. I also found out I was going to be a grandma again:) Life is good. Thank you God for my Second Chance. "Don't Blink"

7 months later :)

Wow!!! That was a rough ride......... but it was well worth it. I feel like I am a miracle and so blessed to be here. Life is GREAT I almost feel normal again ... I got really sick~~ had a hard time keeping my blood counts up, battled depression and then went back to work in August. I have been so busy, but I just wanted to take the time to write and let you all know.. I am doing well!! When you are sick, you search for answers and then when you get well its almost like you forget and then the other people out there left searching are thinking the worst :( like they didn't survive..  I think they are just busy living there lives ........ I lost my hair on day +11 it was ok, I wore a wig alot ~~~actually up until Dec 19, 2011..... my hair came back gray and curly :) I dyed it brown and it turned red... I'm so ready for it to be long and blonde again hahaha ..I have had to go back and have a few blood transfusions to keep my red blood counts up .. I thnk it was day +48 that I knew I was going to beat this thing.. Its 7 months later and I have been able to have Thanksgiving, Christamas, watch my youngest son turn 16 and get his drivers lic. To me this is all just the ICING on the cake ..

Day +10 mom cutting my hair

Day +10 me with my shaved head and Lisa :)

BALD even the shaved hair feel out, at least I didn't lose my eyebrows:)



August 11, 2011 (Wig)



September 25, 2011 (Wig)

November 5, 2011 (Wig) Lisa & I

December 17, 2011 HAIR!!! Alex & I

December 25, 2011 Merry Christmas everyone!! HAIR Lisa & I

I will join the gym Jan 1 2012~~~ I am so ready to get back in shape.. Loving life I will post a few pictures to show you my progress.. Life is Good.. God is GREATER.. "Don't Blink"

Day +4

I just wanted to make a post. It is so boring in the hospital. I feel pretty good. I can't really eat anything its all YUK and taste like glue. my throat feels kind of sore. My energy level is pretty good, Alex and I did laundry up on the 12th floor. I had to ear a mask :(  I still have my hair??? Probably just for a few more days.I am wondering will I wake up and it just be laying on my pillow, or will it just think out , or will il come out in chunks and i will look like I have the mange :( oh well it doesn't matter one thing is for sure I WILL LOSE IT, I have my wigs and scarves I just hate people to stare at me, even though I am the worlds biggest people watcher.. I guess I will get used to it.
My step daughters came up last night to visit for a little bit, Lisa came by and Granny, Pappy & Lucas came.. Drew Called and said he was coming today. Chelle called and we chatted awhile.
I learned that I get to go home when my WBC get to 4500.0 So Thats my goal :) My numbers yesterday were
WBC 0.2
HCT 30.3
PLT 19
TP 72%
ANC 144
I'm really excited some of my old high school buddies are coming to see me.. Letitia Jones & Sam McCarter that will be fun..
Alex got up this morning and went to work. He picked up Lucas, they have a long day. I feel bad for him because he wants to be here all the time, but he has so much other stuff to take care of. I tell him I will be fine to go :) Its hard to put your life on hold.. But at least I have this chance to have a longer life and soon I will be right back out there with everyone living my life:)
They haven't brought my counts for today but I will post them when I get them:)

Day +1

I feel pretty good, they had to give me some blood today because my level was to low. it dropped under 25
The SCT went Great..... I guess, I am here. Alex, My sister Lisa and 2 of my kids Shawna and Lucas got to be in the room ..The worst part was my throat , I felt like I was suffacationg .. then they had some ladies rubbing my feet and neck and it just irratated me :)  I can't stand for strangers to touch me hahaha..Shawna videoed it but it took about 30 minutes so I can't figure out how to upload it. I will though. I slept most of the day away. they moved me to another room..
my counts for today are

WBC 2.0
HCT 24.1
PLT 41
TP 99
ANC 1980

I haven't been able to keep much of anything down.. just some ice and sprite. Alex is taking Lucas to the races so I get a quite night at the hospital with my sisters Lisa & Chelle...Well maybe not quite :)

Day +2
WBC 0.8
HCT 23.9
PLT 29
TP 95%
ANC 760

Day -1

My daughter Shawna & I

What a boring day .. I have thrown up alot and just watched TV. Shawna came up here for awhile. Alex went to work today .. I got to take a shower yay!!! I really feel good, I am having some pains in my stomach but nothing major, I am just dealing with it, they keep saying that can give me meds, I would just rather not,, If I get bad I guess I will.. But so far so good.. Tomorrow is day ZERO my new Birthday...
here are my Number are

WBC--- 20,400
HCT ---26.0
Plts ---90K
TP--- 81%
ANC-- 18970

Day -2



Ready to Rock & Roll

Wating on the Chemo .. I feel Great .. I have gained about 15 lbs so far ???  :( Its from the Constant fluid they are pumping in me.. They said they have to so my kidneys don't get damaged. they said the fluid will go away with lasiks really quick. Its mostly in my legs and face .

I ate ice the whole time :)

My Chemo, Fluids and nausea meds.

They came in a hooked up the Chemo, they gave me some nausea medicine first. Lisa was here:) she stopped by on her way from the dentist and Alex was here. They told me to eat ice the whole time and it would help with mouth sores.... so I did.. NO PROBLEM:) I did good. I got really sleepy afterwards, but have been up all day ~~~Three of My Old Doctors I haven't seen since I was diagnosed in July came by to see me, they were AMAZED at how I looked.. I was Looking BAD when they diagnosed me back in JULY..and they hadn't heard how I was.. They said they thought about me alot.. It was great to see them!!!. . Its 7PM and I haven't gotten sick yet. I'm just so bored, they have me on a heart monitor and its like a leash to my bed, I can't go anywhere. They said the chemo is so stong it could damage all my organs so they have to monitor me very closely.... after my Transplant Friday they will move me to a different floor if all goes well and I will be able to walk around.I hope I still want to by then hahahah ... Still hanging in there:)


All done with Chemo :)